So, I just realized today, I might need a man after all.. Hmm.. Ain't easy admitting for a chick who want to stand on her own two feet doing it all by herself.. But it is in times of crisis we really figure out who and what we are I guess and sometimes (guess I gotta admit it) a man could come in handy.. Now I'm talking about the crisis being the type where there's a bug involved for instance.. Call me weak, but there goes my limit, that's my fobia! I almost stopped breathing.. But hey! Who said a little breath-holding would kill you!? I survivied.. But I do admit my first impuls was to grab that phone and call this guy I'm seeing, just for the comfort.. But I didn't, didin't wanna scare his ass off.. How hot is it with a woman calling sounding hysterical babbling about some bug in her wardrobe.. We're pretty fresh too, and if I know guys he'd probably think twice before setting his ass on my door step again, unfortunately.. That's just my luck anyway..

So, I guess we've entered the door guys.. Into what I think this blogg is really gonna be mostly about, men.. Can't live with them and can't live without them.. Sometimes though, I'm pretty damn sure I can..

I'm was a small town girl, that equals naive.. My big lips and my african ass wasn't really appreciated back in my town but that all changed the day I started going to school in the big city.. Those guys liked what they saw and this girl she liked it too.. And of course, me being a Leo and all I was purring away! We Leos like a little bit of attention from time to time.. Although, I must say I am a very modest Leo in person and I have a stage fright which I'm dying to get rid off! I'd love to act.. Just a dream no one really knows I have and I think I like keeping it that way.. Anyway, back to school ;-)

I met a couple of guys, I'll most definetly come back to who they are and what they did another time because it is entertaining, let me tell you! And I've been heartbroken more than once.. But you learn, you pick up a whole lot more than you think thoughout the years.. I'm happy eventhough it wasn't fun right then and there but shit happens! It made me the Woman I am and they can't do shit to me today.. Chocks them every time, because one thing I can tell you is, they always come back! It can take a month, half a year, one year, even two but they come back and show their asses! Thinking we're gonna get down again, but please! I know you've all been there and hopefully learned that it ain't worth it.. They ain't worth it, they ain't shit for treating you bad in the first place, now why should we give 'em another chance!? I know we all did it, will probably do it again (I won't) but think about it next time.. There is a lot of guys out there..

Eventhough I know it ain't easy finding a good man I know it ain't worth grabbing a bad we already used once.. If he wasn't really good in the sack though, those men are excused, they do have a talent, mmhmm.. But let me tell you honeys, then he's just gonna be used for that purpose and nothing else.. No hopes, no wishes, no needs from your side, because, I'm sorry to say this.. Once an asshole, always an asshole and no, you ain't the one changing him.. Because a guy who wants a woman, he'll let her know and she'll feel it.. And let's just face it, we have a tendancy to block those feelings of rejection out, those that to anyone other than ourselves (being so in love and all that other shit that makes us not being able to think clear) would be pretty damn visible..

Now let's instead focus on the guy that wants us, it is much more fun really.. Sometimes I do think that we're all just a bunch of masochists thinking we want the bad guy when really he doesn't make us feel good at all.. We might be a little flattered that he's paying attention to us and he might be very nice to look at (beauty is enchanting, I know).. But in the long run we need someone who's gonna be there for us (in times of crisis envolving bugs for instance, haha), someone who's gonna listen to us (eventhough they're not as good at that as our girlfriends, but at least someone that tries), someone that will hold us and just someone that cares about us.. At least I know that I want a guy like that.. But I do like him to look good and give me butterflies as well.. But who said we can't have it all? I believe we do and therefore I seriously doubt the player to be any good for me, I don't even go there anymore.. I don't start it anyway.. If they show interest I'm willing to give them a chance, just as anyone else I feel attracted to, but I won't be stupid and I've been there before so I know all the tricks.. But I do admit it,the game can be fun, but it's only fun until you get feelings for the guy, so be careful!

Anyway, back to the good guy.. And I'm only gonna say one thing really.. Remember that song with Cher, you know the one I'm talking about.. At least if I ask you in what one way you'll know if a guy really likes you? It's in his kiss.. And I've fooled myself a lot there too, but if we really pay attention then we know the answer don't we ladys?

This is gonna have to be it for today.. Enjoy and I'll see you again soon =)